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hearing: cheesy hotel music and a squeaky fan?
feeling: intrigued
wanting: to be with my husband

Just a small note that I am indeed in Japan. The flying was fine although the timing and the vastness of O`hare were a bit unnerving. Luckily, I made myself an American friend who just so hapens to work at DISNEYLAND in Tokyo. She plays the princesses ~ how cool is that? Wait until I tell Samantha that I met Cinderella!

Anyway, I probably would have been lost without her but I am not. In fact, I`m currently using the internet at a hotel because I decided it’s worth the 50 some dollars for a hot shower and a real bed. I’ve really been sleep deprived as of late.

I’m going to make a few phone calls then shower and hit the hay.

A week already since the last post?
I’ve been busy; hell, everyone’s been busy. If they weren’t, work wouldn’t be so damned busy.
Unfortunately I still have a job but I guess it’s good with all the money I’ve been spending on Christmas gifts. I just need to buy the ones for Mom and Tim but I know what I want to buy them and I know where I’ll buy Tim’s but I’m not sure about mom.

I still have to wrap and label everything I bought as well as put some extra ornaments on the tree. I can’t remember if I’ve mentioned the tree but it’s a fake tree which belongs to my ex roommate’s step-father and is about 10 years old. Needless to say, it wasn’t very pretty when we first put up the lights and then I had trouble with those.

We got them all up and we we plugged them in, part of a strand wasn’t working. After some fiddling, I found a loose bulb on the floor and put it in its spot, but it still didn’t work so I bought some replacement bulbs and another strand of lights thinking that, if worse came to worse, I’d just change them. At one point, I’d thought the unlit section had actually moved from the middle of the strand to another place, but I’m not sure now. I thought that the place where the bulbs didn’t work was in the middle of the strand so that confused me even more but, as it turns out, it was at the end of the first strand.

Well, I did replace a couple dead bulbs and that helped, but the lights still didn’t work. As I’m playing with them, I realize another bulb is completely missing so I think that I’ll use one of the spares from the new set, even though I didn’t want to. It doesn’t matter as those don’t even fit.

To make a long story short, I found the last bulb in the box, put it in and the lights worked. I returned the extra bulbs and lights to Wal-mart but it wasn’t to the one in Wausau and they ripped me off.

Anyway, I bought some garland and hung the bulbs which Grandma gave to me along with the very few decorations I have and the tree looks much better. I’ll take a picture of it (and probably all the presents I bought for my sister) once I put up the rest of the new decorations I bought, which will be this morning.

I also need to clean up the living room, which is so full of boxes it looks like I’m moving again, send out my Christmas cards, and put together my bookcase. Luckily, I have off Sunday and Monday. Hopefully I’ll be able to get some sleep, too, and play Maplestory (I’m now level 23).

PS, I’ve edited the song of the week.

Alas, the snow has mostly melted, save for a few patches on the ground. The grass beneath it is almost entirely still green and it makes for an interesting sight. The other day I was going to grab a root beer from the cooler on the back porch, only to find that all the cans of soda (and some ladybugs) were frozen in a large cooler-shaped chunk of ice.

Yesterday, I checked again because it was warmer and while much of it had melted, only the Pepsi was retrievable. -_- However, while checking I noticed that the neighbours built two snowmen and while the ground was patchy they seemed in-tact. Not-so, today. The larger one’s head has melted off and all that remains is a small, lifeless, earmuff-covered snowball on the ground. )=

I stayed up almost all day yesterday, working on the icon site, playing MS and, later, trying to fix Ashe’s computer which is infected with some Trojan/Nail.exe. Rawr. All my efforts helped little but it was slow going since I had to run upstairs to use her dad’s computer whenever I needed to look up a possible problem/file because this malicious little bugger on her computer means she cannot use the internet.

So after finally being able to download Hijack this! and CWShredder onto her computer and removing some crap with that and then manually deleting it, starting and restarting in both safe mode and regular, I was still left with 3 or 4 pesky files which would not go away but at least I can name the problem.

Today i’ll head back over there with a few more programs burned onto a CD because my trust floppy disk has done all that it can. Can you believe she had outdated versions of both Adaware and Spybot and no antivirus protection? Eesh. d=

Anyway, I hope I can solve this problem because it’s bugging the fuck out of me. Ben, if you read this, stop by Ashe’s today and/or give a call.

To add to the not-so-happy news, I woke up today to my phone ringing but I couldn’t answer it in time because, get this, my hands were number from sleeping! So, I missed Rian’s call and after I was up a bit I realized I forgot to take out the garbage. Usually missing a week doesn’t matter so much but I do need to change the garbage and clean up all the junk mail which has wound up on the hall floor.

Aaaand, today was the day I’d planned to go Great Lakes, Illinois, a naval station, to get some stuff done so I could, hopefully, be with my husband. Unfortunately, no one ever fucking answers the phone and I finally got someone yesterday to ask a question and realized this process would be more difficult than I thought. Thanks for telling me earlier, you know? And the lady who deals with appointments wasn’t there either. -rme*

So, I don’t know if I’m going to try again or not because Rian says not to bother but, after going through all this shit, I don’t want to hear “Oh nevermind” and I’m really so close to getting this shit done that giving up now would be more than “frustrating.” We’ll see I guess.

I need to shower.

hearing: A Trojan commercial
feeling: Sore & Tired
wanting: My kitty

Hasn’t been much to blog about lately. Work is work and there’s good days and bad days. I’m glad to have the Cow gone, but CSM Kim needs to be more assertive and take the initiative. The cashiers shouldn’t be the ones telling her what to do and she should make she she is “Taking care” of us before herself, as our supervisor and that includes not only breaks but keeping up busy and working as well.

I’d been having a terribly hard time to find a costume I liked. I don’t want to be just some Gothic/Dark/Evil/Princess/Renaissance/Thing; I’d rather be something which people can name. I found several online but buying clothes online can be risky because you can’t try it on and don’t know if it will fit and costumes are designed to fit a range or sizes but something which claims to be a small or a size 4-6, will generally run a little larger or smaller because of the range of sizes. So, with it being this close to Halloween I didn’t want to have to send a costume back and not recieve it in time (or only be able to get a refund because they don’t have anymore) or not be able to do a refund/exchange at all.

I found this costume I liked at work but they didn’t have my size and every place online was at least $20 more expensive. Plus, it’s made for tall people. I did find a couple other costumes I liked online but I didn’t like any of them that much and I really wanted to find something here.

Finally, Ashley and I went to Factory Card Outlet since I was having no luck anyplace else and she still needed a costume. Their costumes were okay, better than some places and the prices were decent but I didn’t see anything I liked and in my size. She bought this costume and then I had to practically beg her to go to Kmart, the only other store which might have something that we hadn’t been to.

So we stop at K-mart and head to the costumes section. They had several of each costume but there weren’t all that many and most of them were fairly trypical. However, after searhcing the racks for a bit I found this one and decided to get it. I’d seen it online and mostly I like how it looks spooky and the purplish glow around the wig. As I’m leaving the cashier tells me how all costumes will be 40% off and if I come back before today (eeps), they’ll refund me the difference. Awesome!

So we return home and try on the costumes and, to my surprise, it fits! Not only does it fit, but my boobs look great in it and I can wear my corset (well, one of them) over the dress but under the cloak and look even better. So, I have a costume and I like it, but I’ll have to buy a better wig which is still cheaper than some of the costumes out there.

Today, I was planning to take a walk up to the mall. to buy the wig and have my necklage fixed, when it opened and then up to Mom’s so I could see Floppy because I missed me kitty something awful. )= Instead, I went there after work with Tim because he said Mom had to work so I figured he could drive me back when he dropped Mom off from work.

Samantha was so cute and sleepy looking as she watched Sesame Street on TV. The animals surrounded me and, eventually, Pesky curled up on my arm/chest and I rested my head on her. Floppy plopped his fat ass down on the coffeee table and purred as I petted him and Tim said he weights 53 pounds now. O_O. Holy big kitty. He needs to go on a diet.

Penny showed up to take Mom to work and drop Samantha off at her Grandma’s and as soon as she walked in the door Samantha was telling her about Cole. Awwww. Thye had to elave shortly so Mom and Tim left it up to Samantha to decide who she wanted to ride with and eventualyl she picked Mom and Penny but she wouldn’t get dressed so they put her bunny slippers on her but then she started whining about how she wanted to “stay with Cole.” I love that kid.

Eventually, I got ready to leave with Tim because he needed to stop at the store and I walked Samantha out to the car but she started to cry because I had to leave her and wouldn’t get in the car when she said “Come on Cole.” I hate it when she cries but, hopefully, I’ll see her later this afternoon and she can help us decorate.

I’ll have to finish decorating the inside of the house tonight with Ashe and we should probably go grocery shopping and buy the food for the party. Speaking of the party, I saw both Mel and Tristan last night and invited them but I still have two invites sitting on my deck because I don’t have addresses to which mail them aaand there’s less than a week until the party. Damn. Time flies quickly.

Speaking of time flying – it’s time for me to fly.

Don’t read this if you’re Rian. d=

Today Fernie told me that one of the unloaders at work likes me. It doesn’t really affect me because, afterall, I’m married and in love and all that happy, mushy junk. :)

It just makes me wonder because I’ve never really thought myself of being capable of causing people to like me, somehow. I’ve always seen myself as less than dating material so when people have liked me I’ve been completely oblivious (such as with Ben), have somehow written it off as “not counting” (like with Rian) or have just laughed/shrugged it off (read: as with most everyone else).

It’s come to me that I am (was?) not quite so loseriffic and I am/was dating potential and people can like me. And now that I think of it, I can name a few people who have been interested in me (of course, I have to be told of this, most of the time d=) so it’s more than just of a couple freak-coincidental-accidents when people seem interested in me.

And a little tiny part of me “regrets” not knowing this because I could have “played the field” and not become involved in so many petty internet relationships but, rest assured, that journey has led me to a mighty fine destination. Additionally, I probably wouldn’t have realized any of this had I not realized myself as a “sexual” being, almost wholly due to Rian with whom, by the way, I am completely in love.