Category Archives: Life

hearing: Metal for the Masses II
feeling: Great
wanting: Nothing, for once

Today was fun. Yesterday was my last day of school and because I either had no exams or took them during class, I did not have to go today, nor Monday or Tuesday. So Ashe and I had planned to go to the mall to get Bourbon chicken with Schmidty, Destiny, and whoever else wanted to come.

Ashe called at quarter to 11, and came over while I checked my e-mail, filled out some loan information, etc. We were supposed to leave at noon but I took a while and had to take a shower. finally I was ready, but decided that if we were going to buy anything I had to cash a check, and since today is the last day I get paid form tutoring, asked Ashe if she wouldn’t mind going there first so I could cash/deposit all my checks at once.

We went to school first and Schmidty wasn’t there but we saw him in his car as we were driving away and arranged to meet back there after we went to work and after her dropped Tammy off at the mall. We went, got my check, and returned. We found Schmidty and set off toward my bank but because there’s too many one ways downtown, and I didn’t know which way to go exactly, the trip took much longer and we made many a wrong turns. We finally arrived and it was so busy. Then, Schmidty had to play with the calculator and I was embarrassed.

Finally, we made it to the mall and found Destiny along with Charlie and Chris. Chris elf soon after we bought bourbon chicken but the rest of us stayed and talked for a while. It was enjoyable.

Then we started wandering around the mall, and our first destination was Hot Topic. I wasn’t planning on buying anything but I remembered I had the gift card and the shirt I had wanted last week was on sale, so I bought that along with the Metal for the Masses II CD which also has a second disk with 150 MP3’s.

Schmidty and Charlie left to go to the bookstore and we stopped at the card store where Ashe bought me a bday card with polar bears. It’s cute. Unfortunately, then we lost Schmidty and Charlie because they weren’t at the bookstore when we arrived. We looked for them, and after a while we found Matt and some other chick..

So after a while we decided Schmidty was not in the mall and we would go back to the car. Then we see Schmidty and Charlie and it turns out they went to the library because they thought that’s where we went. I found it funny because my books were still in Schmidty’s car which was locked. At the library they made Charlie throw away my bourbon chicken. )=

So we headed to the library and returned my books and went down to the little park thing by the river. Then I took them across street and we crossed this old train bridge thing which freaked out Ashe. I showed them this place down by the dam which was cool and then we cross the river where the kayaking events will be taking place next month, and walked back to the car. There’s this cool building next to the dam which I would love to buy. It’s brick and has a really old feel, kinda British, to it.

Anyway, then we parked downtown to stop into this shop that Ashe wanted to go to and she found a nice plant to buy her mother. We stopped at this little cafe and had root beer floats, which was fun but my stomach was full and by the time we left I felt as though I was going to hurl. We went to uncle Oscar’s which has vintage clothing, an old bookstore, and then Janke bookstore. Ashe found something to buy herself there, a stuffed duck, and it was fun.

They dropped me off at home and I opened my mail: a letter from my first grade teacher. I think she just changed the names and sent the same letter to each of the students in our class, but that’s okay. She included some things she wrote after our first grade year, which was also the last year she taught first grade in that school. It closed a few years later, and all the classes after mine went to a neighboring school. She also sent each of us a copy of a story we wrote. I’m going to write her back because it was really sweet of her.

Yesterday I called Rian, and that was fun. I really missed him and it was becoming unbearable. On the flip side, I have started to catch up on some things. ;) I love talking to him, though, so I don’t mind being a little behind.

Monday night is graduation and practice is that afternoon. Tomorrow afternoon is both Wendy’s party at her dad’s and Christina’s grad parties and I’d like to go to Wendy’s and show up at Chis’ a little later because it’s a sleepover, but I have no ride to either. Then on Sunday Wendy is having another party’s at her mom’s and I really want to go to that, but don’t know if I can.

Also, next weekend is Christina’s, Melissa’s, Lary’s, and Ashe’s parties. It’ll be insane because they’re ALL on Saturday, and Lary’s is a sleepover. So.. I don’t know. If Tim has the car tomorrow, then things should be a little easier..

Bleh, I’m going to end this now.

hearing: Pitbull Daycare
feeling: Cold!
wanting: my Rian )=

I had the WEIRDEST dream. For some reason Lary and I were up at her really expensive summer house up north, and Holly was there, too. Well out of the blue comes our friend Charles, with whom I rarely speak and he is spending the night. Somehow it was morning and they were firing cannon balls into the lake to look for dead bodies, but one missed and came at us. The rest of the dream entailed my running while holding some little kid, and kicking the cannon ball out of the way. All I know is I accidentally kicked it toward the house (lmfao) and I can remember thinking “Oh, shit.”

hearing: Third Eye Blind
feeling: Hot
wanting: Something to drink
First Wendy needed clothes and Lary got all bitchy about how she wasn’t going to drive to her dad’s house because gas prices are expensive and she was ranting about why Wendy couldn’t drive when she has a license and a car to use whenever she wants. However, I think that even if her parents say she can use the car it doesn’t mean it’ll be available or whatnot, and I don’t think she can take it to school or use it for hours on end. So Lary basically made Wendy sound incompetent and I didn’t know what to say or do.

Once we get to her house I’m shocked because these guys must be loaded. I think they built their house and it’s insanely clean to the point where it doesn’t look like anyone lives in it, and they have like no TV’s. At least, I didn’t see any. The living room is full of plants and it seems like they try to remove any signs of human life. The kitchen has these weird cupboards that are like 7 feet in the air above the normal cupboards and I have no idea how anyone can reach them.

So Lary basically locks us up in her room with her computer and Wendy and I talk for a bit because it’s odd for her to just leave, you know? She returns and at some point she gets all upset because her mom was being a bitch and she was angry with her hair. I think her mom speaks to her a bit condescendingly, so we no longer have to wonder from whence it comes.

Okay. So eventually Lary comes in practically in tears in her “something’s obviously wrong but since it’s not apparent so I look like an idiot” way. And I tried to tell her to calm down and breathe so we could have fun tonight, but she made it into how I was telling her to just get over her problems, which I wasn’t.

Eventually she dresses and I do her hair. That part was really cool. She put in a messy bun and I used this toxic gel stuff to put the ends into spikes which were hazardous to everyone’s health. Wendy said that she looked like the stature of liberty, and I concur.

So finally her mom comes back with a pizza, we eat a few pieces, and then take the rest into the car so we can go. We drive there with like Mapquest directions, and it’s all going pretty okay. Then we get there and grab a place in the line and Wendy’s cousin is behind us but she never says hi. -laughs* We see Ashley G. and talk to her a bit. Wendy also sees some friend from Newman whom Lary obviously hates and whines about. I feel odd because I hate when people see their friends and don’t introduce me.

We get in there and get up pretty close. The first band was kinda nu metalish and I didn’t like them much, but everyone else did. I should mention that because of my height I can’t see anything. )= The crowd isn’t too packed toward the front, but ironically the moshing starts with like the first band and so does the body surfing, neither of which can I stand. The mosh pit would spring up randomly for like 3 minutes then dissipate and appear again someplace else. Had it stayed in one place the whole time I would have been fine with it, but it seemed to start around me, or very close to me every time. Eventually I started shoving and throwing elbows when they fucking hit me.

I really liked the second band and thought they had an awesome sound. They were more hard rock with jazz, rap and pop influences, and they’re British. XD The singer, was hot too. They had the best stage presence in my opinion.

Then Cold comes on and I think I missed it. The guys weren’t very energetic, but the crowd was. As soon as they started the crowd became much tighter as everyone crammed together. Wenny and I were split up from Lary and I kept trying not to lose her in the crowd, but with the pit springing up around us, it was difficult. I couldn’t breathe or move and that’s when it started becoming painful. The energy of the crowd was great, but it was so hard to get into the music. Plus my pants kept falling.

I think when one gets as big as they are, it’s good enough to just be performing and they forget to have energy on stage, but it was good. I think the song selection was kinda sucky, and I would have liked some of their slower ones that I could get into and not die from… Then Sevendust came on and their show was the same as last year’s. It was more about the music and the crowd than them having a good performance. Eventually Wendy and I just pulled out, got a drink, and went more toward the back. That was better because I could see, move,and breathe and that’s when I really got into it with head banging and rock handing. BTW, my neck hates me.

Lary found us and told us to find her near the bathrooms after the show and I was fine with that, but when Sevendust ended they came out to play a few more songs and Lary showed up and was all “OMG I broke a rib.” Wendy and I were a little dubious, to say the least. So apparently whilst we were split up, Lary met a guy, kissed him, moshed, and went crowd surfing. -rme*

So all the way home she’s bitching about this guy named Matt who lives in Wausau and is 20 and she’s determined to go through yearbooks to find his last name and call him, only we all know it will never work.

We stop at county market, and see Mr Lee! He’s all gangsta looking with the backwards hat or something. We talk to him a bit then go in and get soda. But I don’t spend the $5 that I found on the floor at the concert. The cashier was some black guy who kept hitting on Lary in a sweet/creepy way. He said Wendy was 15 and Lary stopped him talking before he guess how old I was. -lmfao* She was all “I broke a rib” and he was “I can take a few minutes off and drive you to the hospital” It was creepy.

We get to Wendy’s and while they take showers, I can’t because I have no clothes and I’m tired anyway so after some cheetoh’s and a dew I fall asleep on the love seat downstairs. Now Wendy’s house is nice. It’s newer but not too huge, and the kind of house I think I’d like when I’m growed up. Lary’s house just made me feel poor, really poor. I judge people by their houses, it’s weird. Ours is so old, and small, and crappy. It’s like 110 years old, I guess.

Anyway, I snored a lot because I was tired and I could tell. We woke up on and off, and I couldn’t stay up until I smelled bacon and we went upstairs and Wendy’s mom had made us bacon and waffles. And earlier in the morning she made us chocolate chip cookies and brought them down while they were still warm with MILK IN A BAG!

So we ate and then Wendy’s sister came over, and she actually introduced me. Then Lary went home, Wendy and I hung out a bit, and then her mom drove me home.

Samantha’s walking now. I don’t know if she’s early developing or not but it sure seems quick. She’s crawling on my side currently. She seems to be a really intelligent baby, and I know people say that about all babies, but I’m not a baby fan at all.

I think Ben and I may go into a sort of business venture together. This could benefit me in many ways, I believe. If I did make any sort of money that’d be great, and working it’d be a great experience for me as well. It’s just so hard to get a hold of him. Let me rephrase that; I don’t call people. Although, I did call him last night because I think I broke Ashe’s comp. I wonder whether or not that has been fixed.

Well I know have an hour and a half off at the end of every day because I dropped calc. I wasn’t doing well, but I know I could have done well if I’d put any effort into it. I didn’t try and I feel as though I let myself (and Roch) down just walking out the easy way; however, I do feel relieved and I will devote more time to chemistry, and it’s not like I need it for any of the colleges I’m looking at. Yesterdya I felt bad aobut this. I felt as though I had done the typical thing people in my family do: run away from their problems. It’s probably the only thing I really regret about my life so far.. So in a way i’m punishing myself by not letting me go back; I made mymind and I have to deal with the consequences which means I will learn from my mistakes. Don’t I sound like a psycho?

In other words Valarya gave me an xmas card and she drew a little comic book thingy. It shows our tree falling down on us and me dying. It’s true except for the dying part. ^_^

I have one more college ap to send off and if I didn’t tell you I was accepted to Collins as well. Mom needs to sign something and we fax it in then I’m all done! I’m so excited

Tomorrow is our last day of school and the only class I’m doing anything serious in is chemistry. We have to finish the lab we started today and I really had no idear what i was doing. o.0 But I think everyone was behind and not just us. In every other class I have some sort of party. I’m going to get fatter than I already am. All I can say is wow, I though this was high school? -laughs*

Anyway I love Rian

Daily Dirt
1. What’s your favourite celebration ever? I don’t really plan things like this. If it happens it happens and I go along with it and things are much more fun when they’re spontaneous anyway.
2. Where do you love to celebrate your birthday? I don’t anymore. It’s been forgotten for the past two years and I have learned not to get my expectations too high. Whenever I have parties there are fights or I wind up not being the centero f attention and feel like no one cares and I get all melodramatic and then the shit really hits the fan.
3. Do you celebrate anniversaries? On the 7th Rian and I always say happy anniversary in some way…
4. What other stuff do you celebrate that does not have an exact dates? Floppy’s birthday.. I don’t know when it is, but sometime in may I tihnk. This year he turned 4 and I bought him a pink catnip mouse!
5. Ever celebrated anything alone? I don’t know..