Category Archives: Life

Perhaps the better title of this post would be “everyone loves me.” But I thought that sounded a bit too egotistical. It’s true though. I have no enemies. People don’t dislike me. They meet me, they learn about me and they love me.

I think this is because I make their lives better. I listen, I make them laugh, I’m a good friend, sister, daughter, whatever. And people tell me this all the time. It’s amazingly touching. It’s also reaffirming because I always suspect that I am beneficial to others, but that they take the time to tell me proves it.

I am a lot of things, and not all of them are good, but it more than balances out in the end. It makes my life worth living, truly. It makes me glad to wake up in the morning and look forward to tomorrow.

The thing about this is that I don’t really try. I mean, I do, but it’s not like it’s difficult. What could feel better than knowing you’re a positive factor to those that you love — and knowing that everyone you’ve ever loved pretty much agrees — than the knowledge that you’re just naturally good at it?

I don’t know. Maybe nothing better exists, just like my enemies don’t.

There, I said it.

I mean, dating at 26 is weird because it’s the first time in my life I’ve actually done all the awkward do-I, does-he, do-we stuff in person. So there’s that.

And dating is weird when you’re divorced. I inevitably have to bring it up, to explain why and to detail my ex-husband’s role in my life (none). I feel pretty self conscious about that.

With Facebook? Dating is even weirder. I can’t quite say everything I want to say because even if the person I’m discussing isn’t on my friends list, someone who knows them is. Words spreads quickly in a small city like this.

Finally, dating is weird when you become romantically involved with people who have historically been your friend. I’d never expected to have to navigate that road. It’s just. Strange. It’s slow and awkward. It’s still fun and exciting, but you’ve got to be careful when becoming more-than-friends. In fact, I think this is trickier than dating someone who was previously a stranger. There’s just so much at risk.

So, you can guess what I’ve been doing from this post.

I don’t even know the last time I blogged here. To be honest, I don’t know the last time I sat down and had a little time for myself. While part of me — the old me who is afraid of change — wants to say that I need time to be alone and relax, I’m really not feeling anxiety like I did last year. In fact, if you’ve been following me on Twitter or Facebook, then you know that I think 2013 is pretty awesome and I’ve been having a good time.

I’ve been more social in this past week or so than I ever have in my life, I think. February was full of movies, restaurants and bars, but the beginning of March has included cuddles on my couch, game and movie nights, drinking with friends, catching up with family, reconnecting with old friends and general entertaining. There’s been very little time for me to even sleep, but I don’t seem to mind. I get up in the morning way before I expect to and am so excited for my day.

Someone suggested that is almost seems like I go through sl0w-motion manic-depressive states. In hindsight, this doesn’t necessarily seem untrue. I am on a really high high at this moment. I know it’s not sustainable, but it’s also not dangerous, and I am okay with that. Even my lows haven’t been quite so horrible, and I know I’ll fly through them, too. In the meantime, here’s a list of what you need to know about my life:

• Boys want me but they can’t have me because..
• Something romantic is in the works
• My friends are hilarious
• And they think I am, too, even when I’m drunk
• Pizza at two o’clock in the morning is awesome
• Sometimes a broken lamp is the price of admission
• Spring needs to come soon!
• The cats needs to chill out
• I hate the laundry room appliances here
• I am more comfortable with myself than I’ve ever been
• Cuddles are awesome!
• I really need to stop playing Candy Crush Saga. At first, it was boring. Now it’s an addiction.

and she is awesome.

iTunes Games

Because this is what iTunes looks like when I sign in. The iPod Touch I gave her for Christmas still uses my account, so I can keep an eye on her. This isn’t even all of them. Who knew that so many games had cupcake icons?