Category Archives: Family

hearing: Heather Nova – Gloomy Sunday
feeling: tired/horny/sore
wanting: Rian

So I talked to Randy yesterday, and it really was him. We discussed how Patricia stole his MSN account, how their marriage was doomed from the getgo, an “incident” and he confessed the both of them to have their psycho “moments.” It seems they’re both victims and criminals to themselves and eachother. Sad. People do deserve happiness but no one said marriage – or life, for that face – was easy.

Onto another topic, something has piqued my interest in BDSM and D/s again so I’ll probably be spending more time focusing on that and hopefully expanding my knowledge and myself as an individual.

Have a few layout ideas but i’m currently working on the sex section. Time flies more when I work on the site than during any other internet activity so it takes a lot of motivation for me to sit down and work on a few pages. Plus, it’s difficult to organize my thoughts.

The fair is in town and I want to go to a few concerts plus attend wristband day on Sunday which will work out since I have Saturday off.

Rian is now in Japan and I miss him already! I hope communication isn’t too severely severed but I guess we’ll see. )=

Another cashier at work has been telling people about “Poor Nicole” who just married and her husband is “so mean” to her. -lmfao* Poor abused me, eh? I think she just misunderstood when I was talking about Tim being an asshole but, still, she has no right to talk about my personal life amongst others, especially at work and when I work with family members, who knows what will travel at the speed of sound. I’ll try to talk to her tonight, if she’s working.

anyway, I’m tired and since one of the concerts I want to see is tonight, I should sleep.

I might make references to names and places with which/whom you are not familiar but this will probably be a pretty interesting read, so keep going anyway.

Today I recieved an IM from Randy, my ‘ex’ with whom I rarely speak. Why the quotes (which aren’t even quotes?) It was simply an internet thing and while it may have lasted some time, I eventually wisened up. Afterall, being 16 and writing to your boyfriend in prison just doesn’t look good on a resume. He was older, I was smitten. He gave me all of ihs attention and affections and nothing I did could be wrong.

In reality, he was desperate and I was flattered. I thought it was love but realized it wasn’t when he was locked up and cuold no longer give me what I wanted. I ended it and it was difficult because I’d never done that before but I went on, eventually to meet my husband and Randy and I talked infrequently – 1 or 2 phone calls and a few IM’s.

This was up until a couple months ago when he IM’d me. He told me he was getting married and I was nothing but happy for him because everyone deserves the right to be happy, don’t they? A few weeks later he was married and we chatted, or so I thought.

To make a long story short, much (possibly all?) of the time I was chatting with him I was chatting with his wife, Patricia who was pretending to be him because she wanted information. At first, I thought she was just jealous and psycho, as I’d heard from Randy’s and my mutual friends, but I learned otherwise.

She was seeking the truth because she was udner the impression that I have Randy’s twins because.. he told her so. I tried to explain just how impossible that would have been (we’d never met and I was still a virgin until Rian >_>). I did, probably exactly what she expected me to do, and denied everything. Finally, I told her she needed to sort things out with him because they wouldn’t have a happy marriage if they werent honest with eachother.

Now for today: He IM’s but, per usual, it’s her. Trying to be a do gooder, I tell “him” that his wife thinks I have his kids and he needs to tell her the truth because I don’t and I shouldn’t be involved in this drama. This is when “he” comes out and tells me it’s really her, she doesn’t know the truth and they’re getting divorced because of all the lies and because he tried to choke her.

Jesus fucking Christ, man. Hindsight really offers a new vantage point? That could’ve been me! I am so very lucky that I got out of that and ended it, even when he begged me not to. I wouldn’t want to be in her shoes.

Funny how life works out, isn’t it?

Samantha’s walking now. I don’t know if she’s early developing or not but it sure seems quick. She’s crawling on my side currently. She seems to be a really intelligent baby, and I know people say that about all babies, but I’m not a baby fan at all.

I think Ben and I may go into a sort of business venture together. This could benefit me in many ways, I believe. If I did make any sort of money that’d be great, and working it’d be a great experience for me as well. It’s just so hard to get a hold of him. Let me rephrase that; I don’t call people. Although, I did call him last night because I think I broke Ashe’s comp. I wonder whether or not that has been fixed.

Well Friday my aunt Debbie came up and she stayed for a little over an hour. I wish she’d stayed longer but it was nice. I don’t see her often and she’s my favourite aunt.

Then Ashe and I went to the library to do our econ and I saw Jake.. I went back to her house and we had fun just talking and playing super nintendo ^_^ If you put whipped cream in soda it gets chunky. Anyway that was nice

Last night I talked to Rian of course, played some yahoo pool and talked to some old friends.. susie, david, shelly, erik.. It’s good to catch up.

Tomorrow I’ll do some homework and such

I have a new to play minesweeper flags

samantha was born at 8:18 this morning
the first thing i did was cry