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Leaving Well Enough Alone

Of course, this post on my shopping blog would be one that Ashe disagrees with. Of course, I had to post it when I was already annoyed with her. Of course, it kind of has to do with one of the reasons I am frustrated with her. Of course, we had to talk about it. Had to. How could we not?! Of course, I couldn’t stop when she said she was getting angry because, by that time, I was, too, and I wanted to be.

The result of all this?

I now realize I don’t believe in dating as a ‘permanent’ station in life. I simply view it as a temporary move between singledom and marriage – neither of which are any better than the other, by the way. It’s generally necessary (unless you’re Dharma and Greg) and, hopefully, enjoyable but it’s not a place I ever desired to stay in for more than a couple of years because, at that point, dating becomes a road block on my journey to marriage. I view dating as something you do until you figure out whether or not you can marry this person and then you stop. You either stop dating and become engaged or stop dating a douche and become single again. If I were to date for years and my partner were unable to show me commitment, I would feel strung along angry, if you couldn’t tell.

It just reeks of indecision to me. Indecision wastes time. Indecision goes hand in hand with confusion. Grey areas in relationships are never a good sign. If you can’t at least loosely define what the hell it is you’re doing, then I think you need to reconsider. It’s not that I think people should push for marriage to the point of being miserable but if that’s what you want, then you should go for it sooner rather than later. Because marriage is clearly defined. Singledom is clearly defined. Dating is not. I thrive on that definition. I have even less respect for casual dating, for the same reasons, but casual sex is A-okay by me.

This all really exemplifies my dislike for wasting time and not knowing where I stand, so if the goal of dating is marriage, then dating for an extended length of time is wasting it. Of course, I realize that not everyone dates for reasons of getting married but I honestly don’t understand other purposes. You may date many people in the search of someone but once you do find that person, shouldn’t you make the next logical step sooner rather than later? It’s just that, if you love someone and you’re happy with them and you want to be with them for a good long time and you can see that happening, why wouldn’t you get married? Why wouldn’t you want to show that to the world? And if you’re not all of those things, why are you still in the relaitonship? Furthermore, while it may never ne an issue, as soon it becomes one being married in the eyes of the law becomes a huge issue.

Rage Against the Machine!

Now, I am a person who can be completely overjoyed over little thing and, at the same time, disappointed to the point of devastation when they do not go my way. It’s not that I’m too caught up with the details; I think it’s that I just realize how the details can perfect the “big picture.”

So, one of those little things which I enjoy immensely but has to be perfect in order for me to do so is showering. And I don’t think I’ve enjoyed a single shower since I moved in to this place. The water temperature is not consistant at all! I always turn on the hot water first, let it heat up then turn on the cold to cool it down to the temperate at which I want it.

But it doesn’t want to stay. Nooo. It wants to vary periodically by 10 or so degrees so I have to step out of the water until it returns to a proper temperature. Or sometimes it wants to go freezing cold and stay that way, even after I turn up the hot water all the way and the cold water off.

This I do not understand. Should I not be able to turn theknobs to the exact degree every time I shower? And should the water not stay that temperature without varying so that I have to interupt my shower by stepping away from the water or adjusting it (even though I know, 9 times out of 10, this will not be effective)? I understand how, toward the end of my shower, the water tends to cool so I may have to adjust it, especially if it’s a longer shower, but should I not be able to shower in peace?!

C’mon people! Where is the justice?

Seriously

Don’t you think it’s about time you grew up and became a bigger person?

Because that’s what started this all in the first place.

It’s Oscar time!

Or it will be soon! So let me know your thoughts on what and whom should be nominated for an Oscar!

Personally, I hope Reese and Joaquin receive something for their roles in Walk the Line which was simply an excellent movie and I think there’s a real possibility of that, I’d also love to see Robots win because it was also very well done but I’m extremely skeptical about that one.

Additionally, I’ve updated the poll and fixed up some errors in some of the quizzes and on the content page.

for your viewing pleasure and entertainment I have added a new page to the interactive content section: visitor’s choice site of the month. Head on over to see just what the fuss is about (er, make some fuss if you could ;)).

Lastly, I’ve updated the featured site. It is now the awesome papergown.org. Click here to read what I think of this site and view the past featured sites.

PS – If you’re at all bored head over to Yakvar’s page and ask her/him/it your pressing questions, silly inquiries or downright inane inquisitions!

Tra-la-la

Alas, the snow has mostly melted, save for a few patches on the ground. The grass beneath it is almost entirely still green and it makes for an interesting sight. The other day I was going to grab a root beer from the cooler on the back porch, only to find that all the cans of soda (and some ladybugs) were frozen in a large cooler-shaped chunk of ice.

Yesterday, I checked again because it was warmer and while much of it had melted, only the Pepsi was retrievable. -_- However, while checking I noticed that the neighbours built two snowmen and while the ground was patchy they seemed in-tact. Not-so, today. The larger one’s head has melted off and all that remains is a small, lifeless, earmuff-covered snowball on the ground. )=

I stayed up almost all day yesterday, working on the icon site, playing MS and, later, trying to fix Ashe’s computer which is infected with some Trojan/Nail.exe. Rawr. All my efforts helped little but it was slow going since I had to run upstairs to use her dad’s computer whenever I needed to look up a possible problem/file because this malicious little bugger on her computer means she cannot use the internet.

So after finally being able to download Hijack this! and CWShredder onto her computer and removing some crap with that and then manually deleting it, starting and restarting in both safe mode and regular, I was still left with 3 or 4 pesky files which would not go away but at least I can name the problem.

Today i’ll head back over there with a few more programs burned onto a CD because my trust floppy disk has done all that it can. Can you believe she had outdated versions of both Adaware and Spybot and no antivirus protection? Eesh. d=

Anyway, I hope I can solve this problem because it’s bugging the fuck out of me. Ben, if you read this, stop by Ashe’s today and/or give a call.

To add to the not-so-happy news, I woke up today to my phone ringing but I couldn’t answer it in time because, get this, my hands were number from sleeping! So, I missed Rian’s call and after I was up a bit I realized I forgot to take out the garbage. Usually missing a week doesn’t matter so much but I do need to change the garbage and clean up all the junk mail which has wound up on the hall floor.

Aaaand, today was the day I’d planned to go Great Lakes, Illinois, a naval station, to get some stuff done so I could, hopefully, be with my husband. Unfortunately, no one ever fucking answers the phone and I finally got someone yesterday to ask a question and realized this process would be more difficult than I thought. Thanks for telling me earlier, you know? And the lady who deals with appointments wasn’t there either. -rme*

So, I don’t know if I’m going to try again or not because Rian says not to bother but, after going through all this shit, I don’t want to hear “Oh nevermind” and I’m really so close to getting this shit done that giving up now would be more than “frustrating.” We’ll see I guess.

I need to shower.

This is Halloween

Although I didn’t get any sleep yesterday, it was fun. I stayed up after work, talking to Rian and then watching Moulin Rouge. A little into it, Ashe and her cousin Sammy showed up to decorate but first we went to Coldstone, the new ice cream place. The name reminds me of that one mechanical gargoyle from Gargoyles who used to be a real one. It’s neat because they take basic ice cream and then add ingredients, either what you specifically choose or to make a couple flavours and you watched them mix it all up. Yummy, too, but I got it all over my clothes because I was crazy tired. -chuckles*

We headed back here, with Ashe’s dad’s ladder, and tried to set up the string of bats but it turns out that our front porch is mostly vinyl siding and weird metal trim crap to which we can’t really nail, tack or staple anything. We wound up carving out the Jack O Lantern instead and, as we were doing that, Wendy showed up. It was quite a funny scene with inadequate tools until we finally decided on this curved, pointed, kinda spatula like thing, which did the trick, but we still don’t know what the hell someone would use that for. (I only have it because it’s came with Ashley. -lol*)

Mom, Tim and Piglet finally showed up (we actually just beat them home from our trip to Wal-mart, the Dollar store and a liquidator place by about 5 seconds) and Tim helped us put up the bat lights as well as strings of lights and spider webs. Piglet helped us put decorations in the ground and she helped Ashe finish her french fries. d=

She’s such a cute baby. Mom wanted to run to Trig’s to buy supper so Piglet and I walked to IGA to buy M&M’s which, she informed me, are her favourite candy and she made me run with her because the sign was getting closer. She also pointed out the moon and we said goodbye as we walked away from it on the way back.

Later in the night, she said that she “loves Cole” (and her mommy and daddy) which is the first time she’s said that. Plus, she said she wanted to watch Scooby Doo and picked it out all by herself and told mom she wanted to stay when mom said it was time to go. I miss her already. )=

I should have taken pictures, but she wasn’t wearing a very cute outfit.

Squeaky Clean

hearing: Nothing
feeling: Cold
wanting: Rian

I meant to blog when I was right out of the shower, but it’s been a while now. There’s almost nothing I like more than a nice relaxing shower and this morning I had no one rushing me nor did I have to go to work. On the other hand, there’s almost nothing I dislike more than a hurried, unsatisfactory shower; it’s so much of a waste that it seems you shouldn’t take a shower at all.

Yesterday I was able to go pick up my medical records. Slowly (but surely?) I seem to be accomplishing tasks which I need to get done but it’s slower progress than I’d like and mostly I’m just frustrated and feel as though I am fighting a losing battle. -sigh*

Hopefully I’ll get down to the mall and library so I can submit the passport stuff, get my necklace fixed and take a look at Halloween costumes. Done and done, except that I forgot my necklace. )=The party planning is coming along, but slower than I’d like. I decided to go ahead and co-host it with Ashe or whatever, but we haven’t really been able to talk all that much and our sense of “decor” doesn’t seem to really mesh. She thinks she’s basically got everything we’ll need and I think we don’t have crap, really. (I’m sure she’ll be pleasantly pissed when she reads this). I picked up all the paper/plastic tableware along with party decorations, a few more sets of lgihts, etc so we’re pretty set. Tomorrow Ashe is coming over as well as Mom and we’ll decorate then.

I’m still working on a new section for the site, but I’m not sure if I’ve blogged about that one, yet. I’ve been distracted by visiting a lot of personal sites and forums, playing Sudoku and viewing pointless video clips from Family Guy.

I did have a new idea for a layout but I’m not really motivated at the moment so I’m not sure if I’ll go ahead with it or not.