New layout.. Think everything is updated.. If not fill out the error form.
Still sick. My sternum hurts.
Tomorrow we’re celebrating Samantha’s first birthday. Mom got a Winnie the Pooh cake.. We’ll go over to Tim’s mom’s house.
Food is good. -nods*
I’ll try to take pictures
Feeling a little depressed. I guess the feeling’s mutual. I’m just so sick of seeing these people with all this natural talent. I believe there isn’t any natural talent that can’t be learned even better, don’t get me wrong. It just seems like these people are so quick to insult themselves in front of those of us who aren’t even half as good. =\
I don’t know if any of this is making sense. I’m willing to work for something but I don’t want to do something just because someone else did. I don’t want to follow in their shadows. I want to do something that’s me. I want to create. I want to be an artist. I want to feel the rush and be in that zone. I want to be oblivious forever. But it doesn’t work that way. There’s always an afterward. That’s when I’m no longer happy with whatever it was that I was doing.
Mer. I think I have so many sites because I’m trying to compensate for my lack of everything. I wish I could make something from scratch. I wish I could see things in my head. I wish I didn’t need guidelines.I really wish this stupid virus would go away.