Decorative Flower
Her Realm, Personal website and blog of Cole
Feb 28

Look, a baby!

Samantha’s walking now. I don’t know if she’s early developing or not but it sure seems quick. She’s crawling on my side currently. She seems to be a really intelligent baby, and I know people say that about all babies, but I’m not a baby fan at all.

I think Ben and I may go into a sort of business venture together. This could benefit me in many ways, I believe. If I did make any sort of money that’d be great, and working it’d be a great experience for me as well. It’s just so hard to get a hold of him. Let me rephrase that; I don’t call people. Although, I did call him last night because I think I broke Ashe’s comp. I wonder whether or not that has been fixed.


Dec 18

more questions and stuff

Well I know have an hour and a half off at the end of every day because I dropped calc. I wasn’t doing well, but I know I could have done well if I’d put any effort into it. I didn’t try and I feel as though I let myself (and Roch) down just walking out the easy way; however, I do feel relieved and I will devote more time to chemistry, and it’s not like I need it for any of the colleges I’m looking at. Yesterdya I felt bad aobut this. I felt as though I had done the typical thing people in my family do: run away from their problems. It’s probably the only thing I really regret about my life so far.. So in a way i’m punishing myself by not letting me go back; I made mymind and I have to deal with the consequences which means I will learn from my mistakes. Don’t I sound like a psycho?

In other words Valarya gave me an xmas card and she drew a little comic book thingy. It shows our tree falling down on us and me dying. It’s true except for the dying part. ^_^

I have one more college ap to send off and if I didn’t tell you I was accepted to Collins as well. Mom needs to sign something and we fax it in then I’m all done! I’m so excited

Tomorrow is our last day of school and the only class I’m doing anything serious in is chemistry. We have to finish the lab we started today and I really had no idear what i was doing. o.0 But I think everyone was behind and not just us. In every other class I have some sort of party. I’m going to get fatter than I already am. All I can say is wow, I though this was high school? -laughs*

Anyway I love Rian

Daily Dirt
1. What’s your favourite celebration ever? I don’t really plan things like this. If it happens it happens and I go along with it and things are much more fun when they’re spontaneous anyway.
2. Where do you love to celebrate your birthday? I don’t anymore. It’s been forgotten for the past two years and I have learned not to get my expectations too high. Whenever I have parties there are fights or I wind up not being the centero f attention and feel like no one cares and I get all melodramatic and then the shit really hits the fan.
3. Do you celebrate anniversaries? On the 7th Rian and I always say happy anniversary in some way…
4. What other stuff do you celebrate that does not have an exact dates? Floppy’s birthday.. I don’t know when it is, but sometime in may I tihnk. This year he turned 4 and I bought him a pink catnip mouse!
5. Ever celebrated anything alone? I don’t know..


Jan 12

This one takes the cake

oh my fucking sweet goddess of all mercy!

last night i went to the junior girls, winter formal. it started with pictures at school, in the auditorium lobby. there i saw someone else wearing my dress. i went with Brian, as friends, however his girlfriend also went. i felt rather uncomfortable, but he looked nice. no flowers, my fault, i told him he didnt need to do anything ritualistic, my bad. -l* dances aren’t my strong spot. so we have pictures taken, i think they turned out well, but i wasn’t feeling especially pretty. my hair wouldn’t hold a curl. when we took the curling iron off it wasn’t even curled! i had wanted to be beautiful. yuck.

Next was the grand march, which we skipped. we went to the green mill, the restaurant where Mary Ann works. we ate. (we being Mary Ann and i and our dates) she booked a hotel room for the girls for last night. we wound up being a little late. Mary Ann was doing 100 on the way back to wausau.

we entered the elks club, to eat, even though we had just eaten. there were not enough spaces to sit. this i don’t understand because they had a list of everyone who was planning on attending and their dates. in any case they should have had extra seats. Mary Ann and i sat together, our dates were on their own. josh Mary Ann’s date, was all by himself. so i ate quickly, the food was gross, and sat by him.

my date had eventually found his girlfriend. by the time the food showed up, a good 45 minutes late, we were rushed the eat. they cleared of the tables while i was eating my cheescake! then it was time to dance. my shoes were hurting my feet, the night was not going well, and i didn’t have a date. i didn’t want to dance.

Ramon had proposed we would all go bowling, so i made sure Brian would have a ride home. we hung up his jacket, but then everyone wanted to dance. i really despise club/dance type music. and i don’t think people should skank dance in formal wear. we were also hanging out with some people i really despise. i think i was having as much fun as most of the guys there. :\ Scotty left because he wasn’t having any fun, he looked so cute though!

i finally convinced everyone to leave, by threatening to walk home in freezing cold weather. i felt bad. really bad. but i wasn’t having any fun. this was also after Skelly told me that if her boyfriend asked me to dance i should dance because she had told him to ask me! i know she was trying to be nice but she did not succeed!

so we left, and went bowling. and had lots of fun. we bowled in formal dresses and tuxedos. we laughed. we went back to the hotel, and were planing on just hanging out until everyone had to leave. Mary Ann’s sister was there, along with her husband and their friends. they told us to shut up every time we spoke. seems like they did their best to make us seem really young. her sister dislikes me almost as much as i despise her. stupid cunt.

they finally left around 1, when they should have been gone by midnight. Katie and mike stayed. she whined until he came back fro driving everyone home. she accidentally turned off the heat. it was 55 when we woke up. she also was having nightmares to halfway through the night she opened the curtains and turned on the big light next to me. i was freezing and had light shining in my eyes. i also had no socks for today. -lol* not like it mattered because the shoes i was wearing couldn’t fit socks anyway. i forgot to bring any others.
ugh.


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