Decorative Flower
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Dec 17


It is 4:26 and I am newly showered. I am waiting for Wendy to awake but I realize that she may not work at her usual time. So, I am sitting here in a towel, listening to the quiet hum of my laptop. It is very calming and I realize that I have not been in a place where I could simply listen to it hum away. Wendy’s computer is ridiculously loud–so loud that you can easily hear it down the hall, in the bedroom. My laptop hums away; although, sometimes it is nearly silent.

It’s a shame that I do not take solace in the comforting and familiar sounds around me more often. The narrator of my relaxation CD tells me to do this as I fall asleep and, I must admit, the CD is more effective now than ever. Where I used to listen to it all the way through, and be wide awake, I am falling asleep with no concept of how long I have been listening to it. And sleeping through the night without so many awakenings. The result? I am sleeping far less than I used to. Perhaps still more than your average person (although, I have nothing on your average bear).

Now to get on a normal sleeping schedule because, as you can guess, it is quite abnormal for me to be awake at 4:26 in the morning and I won’t even make it to 8 o’clock tonight. I didn’t last night. That’s okay. I sleep much more soundly when it is dark. Luckily, Wisconsin offers me around sixteen hours of darkness every day and it certainly messes with one’s inner clock–especially if one is not awake during the few hours of light. This is also why I want to adjust my schedule.

But, for now, it is 4:41 and I am calmed by the sound of my laptop and that is all I need.

5 comments on “4:26”

  1. I’m glad you’re getting your sleep cycle under control. If you’re going to bed around 8 and getting up at 4:30 well rested, maybe just try gently shifting it by 15 or so minutes every night until it’s more “normal”? Hate to mess with something that’s working if you have problems with insomnia. :)

  2. I agree with Lisa, smaller adjustments are best when messing with a fragile sleep cycle. When I had to adjust my sleep schedule after moving back east from the west coast the biggest mistake I made was trying to make the adjustment all at once by staying up as late as possible. I would end up sleeping even more and it wasn’t very nice sleep.

    Have you ever tried melatonin? I took it in high school to help with my insomnia that plagued me for years and it really helped.

  3. @Cori: I did take melatonin for a while but it honestly didn’t help at all. )=

  4. I hope you are able to get your sleep schedule under control. It always makes me feel better when I am sleeping right. I love listening to calming sounds. I’ve been trying to listen and appreciate things around me more.

  5. Gladthe sleep schedule is getting better :)

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