Tabitha's Secret - Dear Joan
Dear Joan
I've almost forgotten
The pane in the window
Blue dress in the doorway
Dear Joan
Help me remember
The face I forget
And the traps that I've sprung
I guess I've grown tired
It's just what's expected of me
To tear your heart
From the inside to the outside
You know I was wired
I just couldn't help it
The hundred thousand times I hurt you
Dear Joan I wanted to say
I'm sorry for the screaming last night,
And the nights before
I've wanted more from this
Than anything I've ever known
Dear Joan
Dear Joan
Your face has a brightness
That I've never seen
In the years that I've known you
Dear Joan
I'd pick up the pieces
But some scattered too far
See, they flew when I kicked them
I know you believed
When I said it was over
You stood by me patiently
Waiting and brooding
So deeply in love
With every face that I've shown
Dear Joan I wanted to say
I'm sorry for the screaming last night,
And the nights before
I've wanted more from this
Than anything I've ever known
Once I forget
Twice I'm a fool
Three times I wrap
My hands around your neck
While your sleeping
So quietly sleeping
Sleeping and dreaming
Dear Joan
Don't walk out the doorway
Because if you did, I believe
I could honestly kill you
Dear Joan I wanted to say
I'm sorry for the screaming last night,
And the nights before
I've wanted more from this
Than anything I've ever known
Dear Joan I wanted to say
I'm sorry for the screaming last night,
And the nights before
I've wanted more from this
Than anything I've ever known
Dear Joan
Cole @ 5:50 PM
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+1 to the soundtrack of my life
Stupid hiccups!
Holy Mother of Mary!
Updates
Cool shit!
Alas, the snow has mostly melted, save for a few patches on the ground. The grass beneath it is almost entirely still green and it makes for an interesting sight. The other day I was going to grab a root beer from the cooler on the back porch, only to find that all the cans of soda (and some ladybugs) were frozen in a large cooler-shaped chunk of ice. Yesterday, I checked again because it was warmer and while much of it had melted, only the Pepsi was retrievable. -_- However, while checking I noticed that the neighbours built two snowmen and while the ground was patchy they seemed in-tact. Not-so, today. The larger one's head has melted off and all that remains is a small, lifeless, earmuff-covered snowball on the ground. )=
I stayed up almost all day yesterday, working on the icon site, playing MS and, later, trying to fix Ashe's computer which is infected with some Trojan/Nail.exe. Rawr. All my efforts helped little but it was slow going since I had to run upstairs to use her dad's computer whenever I needed to look up a possible problem/file because this malicious little bugger on her computer means she cannot use the internet.
So after finally being able to download Hijack this! and CWShredder onto her computer and removing some crap with that and then manually deleting it, starting and restarting in both safe mode and regular, I was still left with 3 or 4 pesky files which would not go away but at least I can name the problem.
Today i'll head back over there with a few more programs burned onto a CD because my trust floppy disk has done all that it can. Can you believe she had outdated versions of both Adaware and Spybot and no antivirus protection? Eesh. d=
Anyway, I hope I can solve this problem because it's bugging the fuck out of me. Ben, if you read this, stop by Ashe's today and/or give a call.
To add to the not-so-happy news, I woke up today to my phone ringing but I couldn't answer it in time because, get this, my hands were number from sleeping! So, I missed Rian's call and after I was up a bit I realized I forgot to take out the garbage. Usually missing a week doesn't matter so much but I do need to change the garbage and clean up all the junk mail which has wound up on the hall floor.
Aaaand, today was the day I'd planned to go Great Lakes, Illinois, a naval station, to get some stuff done so I could, hopefully, be with my husband. Unfortunately, no one ever fucking answers the phone and I finally got someone yesterday to ask a question and realized this process would be more difficult than I thought. Thanks for telling me earlier, you know? And the lady who deals with appointments wasn't there either. -rme*
So, I don't know if I'm going to try again or not because Rian says not to bother but, after going through all this shit, I don't want to hear "Oh nevermind" and I'm really so close to getting this shit done that giving up now would be more than "frustrating." We'll see I guess.
I need to shower.
Cole @ 11:46 PM
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I stayed up almost all day yesterday, working on the icon site, playing MS and, later, trying to fix Ashe's computer which is infected with some Trojan/Nail.exe. Rawr. All my efforts helped little but it was slow going since I had to run upstairs to use her dad's computer whenever I needed to look up a possible problem/file because this malicious little bugger on her computer means she cannot use the internet.
So after finally being able to download Hijack this! and CWShredder onto her computer and removing some crap with that and then manually deleting it, starting and restarting in both safe mode and regular, I was still left with 3 or 4 pesky files which would not go away but at least I can name the problem.
Today i'll head back over there with a few more programs burned onto a CD because my trust floppy disk has done all that it can. Can you believe she had outdated versions of both Adaware and Spybot and no antivirus protection? Eesh. d=
Anyway, I hope I can solve this problem because it's bugging the fuck out of me. Ben, if you read this, stop by Ashe's today and/or give a call.
To add to the not-so-happy news, I woke up today to my phone ringing but I couldn't answer it in time because, get this, my hands were number from sleeping! So, I missed Rian's call and after I was up a bit I realized I forgot to take out the garbage. Usually missing a week doesn't matter so much but I do need to change the garbage and clean up all the junk mail which has wound up on the hall floor.
Aaaand, today was the day I'd planned to go Great Lakes, Illinois, a naval station, to get some stuff done so I could, hopefully, be with my husband. Unfortunately, no one ever fucking answers the phone and I finally got someone yesterday to ask a question and realized this process would be more difficult than I thought. Thanks for telling me earlier, you know? And the lady who deals with appointments wasn't there either. -rme*
So, I don't know if I'm going to try again or not because Rian says not to bother but, after going through all this shit, I don't want to hear "Oh nevermind" and I'm really so close to getting this shit done that giving up now would be more than "frustrating." We'll see I guess.
I need to shower.
Cole @ 11:46 PM
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hearing: this song
feeling: cold, lonely, sad
wanting: Rian, of course
God, this describes how I feel perfectly.
3 Doors Down - Here By Me
I hope you?re doing fine out there without me
'Cause I'm not doing so good without you
The things I thought you'd never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood
So how could I have been so blind for all these years
I guess I only see the truth through all this fear of living without you
And everything I have in this world
And all that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me
I can?t take another day without you
'Cause, baby, I could never make it on my own
I've been waiting so long just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong
I'm sorry I can't always find the words to say
But everything I've ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love
And everything I have in this world
All that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me
As the days roll on I see
Time is standing still for me
When you?re not here
I?m sorry I can?t always find the words to say
Everything I?ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love
x2
And everything I have in this world
And all that i'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me
Cole @ 2:34 AM
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feeling: cold, lonely, sad
wanting: Rian, of course
God, this describes how I feel perfectly.
3 Doors Down - Here By Me
I hope you?re doing fine out there without me
'Cause I'm not doing so good without you
The things I thought you'd never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood
So how could I have been so blind for all these years
I guess I only see the truth through all this fear of living without you
And everything I have in this world
And all that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me
I can?t take another day without you
'Cause, baby, I could never make it on my own
I've been waiting so long just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong
I'm sorry I can't always find the words to say
But everything I've ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love
And everything I have in this world
All that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me
As the days roll on I see
Time is standing still for me
When you?re not here
I?m sorry I can?t always find the words to say
Everything I?ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love
x2
And everything I have in this world
And all that i'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me
Cole @ 2:34 AM
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hearing: Sarah Mclachlan - Gloomy Sunday
feeling: Sore
wanting: Rian
My hiccups are so physical that when I hiccup, my body shakes and, for instance, if I'm trying to click a certain menu in a program, I will click something else because I jolt so much. Rawr.
My arms are quite sore from shoveling. Although I didn't shovel the driveway, I shoveled the front sidewalk and the end of the driveway, a path to Wendy's car door and from her car to the back porch and the back porch and steps. There wasn't too much snow but I haven't shoveled in a while.
Surprisingly, Wendy's father came over and shoveled our sidewalk after the first snow. o.0 One day Wendy looked out the window and asked who was shoveling and I was all "WTF?" I thought it might've been the upstairs neighbour (ha! Now that's a long shot.) but it turned out to be her dad. It's nice but it makes me feel as though he thinks we're incompetent. I am quite able, thank you very much, and while I may bitch about it, I think I'll prefer to shovel my own driveway.
Still, I think he deserves a bit more than a cup of hot chocolate (which she gave him?) I'm thinking I'll get him a gift card ($5 or $10) to some place for Christmas, but what's a good idea? A gas station? I think that sounds nice but what do my faithful followers think, hmm?
Now that we have at least 6 inches of snow, I think it's time to take down the Halloween decorations except - Oh wait! - they've covered in snow. >_< I guess I should have done it sooner then, huh? Serves me right. Wendy says the snow is supposed to melt this weekend and, if it does, I'll take them down then. I hope I can make Wendy, Ashe or Ashley help because I really don't want to be stuck doing it myself, especially with all the cold and snow and ice.
Speaking of snow (I cannot believe I've written an entire entry about it d=), last ngiht CSM Carol asked Ashley or I to go outside and help the cart stockman but we both decided to help. We get out there and there is only 1 stockman, the parking lot of full of carts and snow; he didn't even have one side done!
So we help but you can't push more than a few carts physically because of the snow and the cart pushing machine is rather slow and we're loading up less than the usual 20 carts onto it because we don't want to blow the motor. Oh, did I mention that the stockman informs us that the cart pusher is about to die any minute?
So we get a few more lines of carts in and fill up the outside cart storage area on the GM side and we do a few more lines when I decide it's time to call it quits and tell Ashley so but, then, I see that one of the corrals is overflowing into the parking lot where people are supposed to drive and it's to the point where it's crossing the entire thing so I tell her to make one more line of carts and we'll bring them in.
Sometime before our last line of carts and after we fill up the GM side, Carol comes outside to ask if the stockman was out there (No, he's done at 11 and it's obviously past that, lady) and to direct us to do the middle (der, we finished one side, the obvious place is the middle. Why do you feel the need to direct us?!).
Finally, we finish the last row and as we're pushing it into the storage area, the cart pusher dies. Phew, we think, except we need it on so we can push it into the building and plug it in to charge. Arg. So, we play aorund and finally it turns on just enough so we can get it inside and plug it in. We finish that and head inside to take a break for as long as we fucking please because we're frozen. It goes to the point that it was an effort to move my mouth to talk.
We're taking off out coats and heading back when Carol says "How about a break?" Not once, but twice. Yes, we're going to take a break you stupid cunt and nothing you say or do will affect it either way because it's our choice and we're already half an hour late for it. So we take a good 30 minute first break. d=
Later we go out and Assistant Jeff catches me and tells me associates will be out to help in half an hour. Well, when the associates go out, they just push the carts into the corals and we had cleaned up all the stray carts by the time they arrived. Besides, we were moving cart from the corrals to the storage areas. So, they come out and I go fetch the cart pusher from Ashley to move the 3 lines I'd set up and planned to go in afterword. Lo and behold, they pushed all my lines of carts back into the corrals. Rawr! -_-
Of course, we said "fuck it" and went back in for our last break, except that didn't happen because Fernie was on break and we got a small rush. For the most part the rest of the day went well and I'm glad to be home but it's a bit cold and I hurt. )= I'm not so looking forward to the idea of having to work with CSM Kim tomorrow night. Incompetent dolt. Ugh.
Toodles!
Cole @ 11:23 PM
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feeling: Sore
wanting: Rian
My hiccups are so physical that when I hiccup, my body shakes and, for instance, if I'm trying to click a certain menu in a program, I will click something else because I jolt so much. Rawr.
My arms are quite sore from shoveling. Although I didn't shovel the driveway, I shoveled the front sidewalk and the end of the driveway, a path to Wendy's car door and from her car to the back porch and the back porch and steps. There wasn't too much snow but I haven't shoveled in a while.
Surprisingly, Wendy's father came over and shoveled our sidewalk after the first snow. o.0 One day Wendy looked out the window and asked who was shoveling and I was all "WTF?" I thought it might've been the upstairs neighbour (ha! Now that's a long shot.) but it turned out to be her dad. It's nice but it makes me feel as though he thinks we're incompetent. I am quite able, thank you very much, and while I may bitch about it, I think I'll prefer to shovel my own driveway.
Still, I think he deserves a bit more than a cup of hot chocolate (which she gave him?) I'm thinking I'll get him a gift card ($5 or $10) to some place for Christmas, but what's a good idea? A gas station? I think that sounds nice but what do my faithful followers think, hmm?
Now that we have at least 6 inches of snow, I think it's time to take down the Halloween decorations except - Oh wait! - they've covered in snow. >_< I guess I should have done it sooner then, huh? Serves me right. Wendy says the snow is supposed to melt this weekend and, if it does, I'll take them down then. I hope I can make Wendy, Ashe or Ashley help because I really don't want to be stuck doing it myself, especially with all the cold and snow and ice.
Speaking of snow (I cannot believe I've written an entire entry about it d=), last ngiht CSM Carol asked Ashley or I to go outside and help the cart stockman but we both decided to help. We get out there and there is only 1 stockman, the parking lot of full of carts and snow; he didn't even have one side done!
So we help but you can't push more than a few carts physically because of the snow and the cart pushing machine is rather slow and we're loading up less than the usual 20 carts onto it because we don't want to blow the motor. Oh, did I mention that the stockman informs us that the cart pusher is about to die any minute?
So we get a few more lines of carts in and fill up the outside cart storage area on the GM side and we do a few more lines when I decide it's time to call it quits and tell Ashley so but, then, I see that one of the corrals is overflowing into the parking lot where people are supposed to drive and it's to the point where it's crossing the entire thing so I tell her to make one more line of carts and we'll bring them in.
Sometime before our last line of carts and after we fill up the GM side, Carol comes outside to ask if the stockman was out there (No, he's done at 11 and it's obviously past that, lady) and to direct us to do the middle (der, we finished one side, the obvious place is the middle. Why do you feel the need to direct us?!).
Finally, we finish the last row and as we're pushing it into the storage area, the cart pusher dies. Phew, we think, except we need it on so we can push it into the building and plug it in to charge. Arg. So, we play aorund and finally it turns on just enough so we can get it inside and plug it in. We finish that and head inside to take a break for as long as we fucking please because we're frozen. It goes to the point that it was an effort to move my mouth to talk.
We're taking off out coats and heading back when Carol says "How about a break?" Not once, but twice. Yes, we're going to take a break you stupid cunt and nothing you say or do will affect it either way because it's our choice and we're already half an hour late for it. So we take a good 30 minute first break. d=
Later we go out and Assistant Jeff catches me and tells me associates will be out to help in half an hour. Well, when the associates go out, they just push the carts into the corals and we had cleaned up all the stray carts by the time they arrived. Besides, we were moving cart from the corrals to the storage areas. So, they come out and I go fetch the cart pusher from Ashley to move the 3 lines I'd set up and planned to go in afterword. Lo and behold, they pushed all my lines of carts back into the corrals. Rawr! -_-
Of course, we said "fuck it" and went back in for our last break, except that didn't happen because Fernie was on break and we got a small rush. For the most part the rest of the day went well and I'm glad to be home but it's a bit cold and I hurt. )= I'm not so looking forward to the idea of having to work with CSM Kim tomorrow night. Incompetent dolt. Ugh.
Toodles!
Cole @ 11:23 PM
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There is SNOWoutiside! OMGWTFMATEBBQE'GADSNESS!
Where did it come from? Did someone predict it?
It's not that cold is it?
Christ.
-mutters*
PS
Happy Birthday Rian!
Cole @ 12:18 PM
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Where did it come from? Did someone predict it?
It's not that cold is it?
Christ.
-mutters*
PS
Happy Birthday Rian!
Cole @ 12:18 PM
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It's been too long, really.
Theres a new Poll and while I'm at it,I'll be looking for a new poll script. I was really hoping to utilize images in the poll but it seems that won't be happening. On a different note, I don't think the tables always looked so crappy, did they?
The poll has been updated, again, to a script which is a huge improvement over the old one. Well, an improvement in the sense that I can have user feedback via suggestions and comments (with emoticons), use multiple polls and actually displayed previous polls as well as use images for poll options and establish different user levels. -grins* Lovely, it is!
I also updated the Sex section, which I don't think I announced before.
You will find new additions to my pictures section, including pictures from the Halloween Party and pictures of me.
Lastly, there's an an entirely new section dedicated to card games for you to check out.
PS. All the "Vote" links to the right are active so, if you have time, please vote for me. (The complete list is located here and I'd appreciate it if you'd click all of this links, daily, buuuut I don't expect it.) Maintaining a position at the top of these lists and moving my way up them gains more hits and visits to the site which, in turn, makes me a very happy Cole. How does it benefit you? Simple. More visits means more motivation for me to create and update new and existing pages and sections which means more content and hours of fun for you!
Cole @ 4:39 AM
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Theres a new Poll and while I'm at it,
The poll has been updated, again, to a script which is a huge improvement over the old one. Well, an improvement in the sense that I can have user feedback via suggestions and comments (with emoticons), use multiple polls and actually displayed previous polls as well as use images for poll options and establish different user levels. -grins* Lovely, it is!
I also updated the Sex section, which I don't think I announced before.
You will find new additions to my pictures section, including pictures from the Halloween Party and pictures of me.
Lastly, there's an an entirely new section dedicated to card games for you to check out.
PS. All the "Vote" links to the right are active so, if you have time, please vote for me. (The complete list is located here and I'd appreciate it if you'd click all of this links, daily, buuuut I don't expect it.) Maintaining a position at the top of these lists and moving my way up them gains more hits and visits to the site which, in turn, makes me a very happy Cole. How does it benefit you? Simple. More visits means more motivation for me to create and update new and existing pages and sections which means more content and hours of fun for you!
Cole @ 4:39 AM
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I want
Additionally, this site is pretty cool and here are just a few images which I especially liked
Of course, it's all so clear now.
Why didn't I see it before?
But this one especially, puts it all in perspective.
Cole @ 11:49 PM
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Additionally, this site is pretty cool and here are just a few images which I especially liked
Of course, it's all so clear now.
Why didn't I see it before?
But this one especially, puts it all in perspective.
Cole @ 11:49 PM
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