The Scrolls

Archive for April, 2004

Bummed.

hearing: sinch
feeling: broken
wanting: rian

I feel just kind of bummed. I don’t know why. I’m not really depressed or anything, I’m just not my usual self. Oh well.

I n the last two days I had 4 tests and I’m prewtty confident about 3 of them. I’m not sure about my Chemistry test, thought. -frowns* We’ll see. At least we’re done with that crap, now.
I’m playing wheel of fortune on msn with Ashe. It’s a pretty cool game. They have a couple new ones. I never udnerstood why people clap while the wheel is spinning. Ashe says they’re cheering it on. I still don’t understand.

My computer has been being a bitch. I deleted tons of temp files and uninstalled programs I don’t use but it’s still freezing a ton. I’ve defragged and run both Norton and Adaware; I just have no clue what’s wrong. It’s becoming extremely annoying.

There’s no Friday Five for this month and that sucks.

Mom has to bring in my ap for Family Dollar. I need a seocnd job, like now. Tutoring ends on the 20th. Yea.

Fuck.

Soon..

hearing: Kimberly Locke
feeling: Wonderful
wanting: Sleep
Well, today I hooked up the DSL modem. I guess Verizon decided we really could have hooked it up yesterday. -growls* But i’m uber happy. It’s cheaper, and fast, and I really missed my computer.

I have tons of things I have to catch up, but don’t worry I didn’t forget you. As you can see, there’s a new “layout” up. This is a temporary arrangement because I will have a new layout up soon, but I was sick of the green! I’ve edited the placement of certain things, but they’re still there. This text area is much easier to read the blogs in, don’t you think? I also caved in and coded up some pretty scrollbars. -swoons* There’s a few more posts on the main page again, now get to commenting!

So a little update. Looks like i’m going to AZ afterall. Another great thing is that one of my oldest firends from the net will be living very close to me and we’re going to have coffee or something. I just can’t believe that! It will be so cool!

Today after work some of the tutors stayed to help Mrs. Graf paint chairs. Well, we had to sand too. Now my hands and pants are full of paint and my arms and back are killing me. OH well. It was rewarding.

I’m going to be getting a second job soon, and I may be working two during the summer. I guess Nate put in a good word with me at Trigg’s so if I want a job there, I pretty much have it. He’s a nice guy. (=

Rian is also a damned fine fellow and I am in love with him. I feel all storybook-romance-like. It’s wonderful. -dances*

I think I’m going to have my hair cut and dyed sometime soon. I have these pretty cool natural highlights, but they just aren’t me.

I’m exhausted, I need to go!

Je deteste.

Rebellion. Rebelling. you say it and I say the opposite just to disagree. Stick to what you’re good at. I’m good at feeling guilty, heart wrenchingly so. I’m good at being mean. I can give it, but I can’t take it. Denial. Denying. Lying. Liar. I lie because I don’t know myself. Death. Dying. Freefalling. you’ll hate me when I fall away Psychosomatic fucking disease. Want to tear out my skin. End this sentence with sin. Frailty. Fragility. Ferocity. Rawr. No rawr. -sigh* C’est triste. Je suis triste. Et je suis cassee. Tu, tu es si parfait qu’il me fait deteste. Je deteste… Je deteste tout le monde.

Edited on Tuesday, 20 april

hearing: Piglet hissing
feeling: cold
wanting: the damned modem

I hope that today the modem will come and then I’ll hook it up. I have so much I need to do but i’ll have to start by clearing of Tim’s computer. I know that his will also run so much better with DSL.

I can’t wait to be on a fast connection that does not kick me off every two minutes, and then take another 20 to sign back on. I’ll also be unvacationed from Provance, so I’ll see some new neat sites, and receive more comments. Actually, I’ve had a few comments from my friends/regulars. (= Thanks guys.

[edit] Modem came. It wasn’t supposed to come until Wednesday but the UPS guy showed up tonight, Tuesday. Only, we can’t hook it up until Friday. WTF[/edit]

I realized that when I blog I sound all matter of fact, so let me be a little emotional/sentimental. I loooove Rian, and he makes me happy. I also hate not being able to talk to him, but soon it will be back to normal and I’ll have to make up for our lost time. d=

[edit] And did you know he’s really hot? At least, I think so. -drools* Cole has a fucking hot boyfriend. [/edit]

I have a ton of questions that I have post, and members to add to all my fanlistings and cliques. It’s a bit of work, but it’s also fun to have active members. (=

[edit]You guys keep submitting stupid questions. It’s leading me to believe that you’re all morons.[/edit]

I’m going to spend a lot of time catching up on the stuff I missed on the forums I’m a member at.
Oh, well I need to go because I have to eat lunch and study for my Chemistry test next period. Wish me luck. I also hope that I did well on my English test yesterday. Mrs Eberlein made me type up the essay question because she cannot read my writing. -lol*

[edit]I did okay on the Chem test, just some dumb mistakes. I haven’t recieved my English test back, yet.[/edit]

PS Powell is a beast. She is one of the worst teacher’s I’ve ever had and I don’t even have her this semester.

Ugh, static.

hearing: Ashe, Mrs Woller, Mrs Eberlein
feeling: staticcy
wanting: Static guard spray

I am so static-cy right now, and it makes me itch and uncomfortable. Besides that, I’m ecstatic because we will soon have DSL. YAY. I can’t stand not being able to do major work on my sites, or having to reconnect every 20 minutes, or having to be on such a slow computer. Tim’s happy, because he’ll have DSL, too.

People stop using the question form as a search. It isn’t a search. It submits an e-mail to me, and I answer the question in a blog entry (not always the next one!) If you want to search the web, go to fucking Google!

I really should do some homework.

Still up?

hearing: blink 182
feeling: tired
wanting: sleep
Vote on my new poll

My plans are to stay up all day because if I go to sleep and wake up late in the afternoon, I know that I will not be able to fall back asleep tonight.

Anyway, I’ve updated tons on the site: webrings, cliques, fan/hatelistings, directories, button rotations, HTML links, Dark Links (TONS added!), pictures, button wall, voting. I am currently going to add more to the button wall and put up an affiliates section.

One of my hostees, Bernie, made me a fansign!

Isnt’ she sweet?! It even matches my layout XD

Tomorrow I go back to school and I don’t think that Spring Break lasted nearly enough. I also think that the warm weather we had at the end of the week before break was a tease, and a mean one at that. It was pretty chilly this whole break, especially this morning. At about 5 (4?) Ginger and I took the dogs for a walk down to the gas station because she wanted to talk. No one walks them, and they really liked it.

I’m back

Vote on my new poll

Miss me? -lol* I spent last night at Ashley’s house. It was okay, but Ifell asleep really early because I only had five hours of sleep the “night” before. Tuesday night Ashley came over and we played games, watched tv, etc. Then about 9 we went over to Ashe’s house and wound up staying the night. I finally fell asleep at 8 am on Ashe’s floor. XD

I have to start my paper for Yasha. By the way, the review site needs more reviewers! Go apply!

I also added a couple pages of new Cole pictures, including some from tonight. I was feeling pretty. ^_^