they lsot the checks at work.. m'till was unde like $15..
i forgot moms bday.. ive finished the layout part of the cliques site
m'working on the add a link page
-and- the icon site
our comp clock was a day ahead
woops
-l*
Cole @ 10:27 AM
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You don't even feel the pain
Too much is not enough
Nobody said this stuff,
makes any sense
We're hooked again
The point of no return
See how the buildings burn
Light up the night
Such a pretty sight
[Chorus]
Adrenaline, keeps me in the game
Adrenaline, you don't even feel the pain
Wilder than your wildest dreams
and you're going to the extremes
You taste adrenaline
adrenaline
adrenaline
You don't even feel the pain
? through an empty night
It's only you and I,
who understand,
there is no plan
Get closer to the thrill
Only time can kill
It's in your eyes
It's so alive
[Chorus]
Adrenaline, keeps me in the game
Adrenaline, you don't even feel the pain
Wilder than you wildest pain
and you're going to the extremes
You taste adrenaline
Run through the speed of sound
Everything slows you down,
and all the colors that surround you,
bleed into one
? you really need
Is just way to find the speed
and then you will achieve
Escape philosphy
Too much is not enough
Nobody gave it up
I'm not the kind to lay down and die
[Chorus 2]
Adrenaline, keeps me in the game
Adrenaline, you don't even feel the pain
Wilder than you wildest dreams
and you're going to the extremes
You taste adrenaline
Adrenaline, screaming out your name
Adrenaline, you don't even feel the pain
Wilder than you wildest dreams
You taste adrenaline
Adrenaline [5x]
You don't even feel the pain [2x]
going to the extremes
there's nothing in between
you don't even feel the pain
feel the pain [5x]
Cole @ 10:35 AM
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Too much is not enough
Nobody said this stuff,
makes any sense
We're hooked again
The point of no return
See how the buildings burn
Light up the night
Such a pretty sight
[Chorus]
Adrenaline, keeps me in the game
Adrenaline, you don't even feel the pain
Wilder than your wildest dreams
and you're going to the extremes
You taste adrenaline
adrenaline
adrenaline
You don't even feel the pain
? through an empty night
It's only you and I,
who understand,
there is no plan
Get closer to the thrill
Only time can kill
It's in your eyes
It's so alive
[Chorus]
Adrenaline, keeps me in the game
Adrenaline, you don't even feel the pain
Wilder than you wildest pain
and you're going to the extremes
You taste adrenaline
Run through the speed of sound
Everything slows you down,
and all the colors that surround you,
bleed into one
? you really need
Is just way to find the speed
and then you will achieve
Escape philosphy
Too much is not enough
Nobody gave it up
I'm not the kind to lay down and die
[Chorus 2]
Adrenaline, keeps me in the game
Adrenaline, you don't even feel the pain
Wilder than you wildest dreams
and you're going to the extremes
You taste adrenaline
Adrenaline, screaming out your name
Adrenaline, you don't even feel the pain
Wilder than you wildest dreams
You taste adrenaline
Adrenaline [5x]
You don't even feel the pain [2x]
going to the extremes
there's nothing in between
you don't even feel the pain
feel the pain [5x]
Cole @ 10:35 AM
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drama = shit
let me take a moment t'tell you how fucking hilarious this little feud in ozpark is..
this scott guy, he ain't that great..
so stop fighting over him..
i cant even call it fighting, there's no direct attacks
it's a cold war
i wouldn't waste m'time
and of course he doesn't seem interested anyway
-rme*
give it up people
Cole @ 5:23 AM
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let me take a moment t'tell you how fucking hilarious this little feud in ozpark is..
this scott guy, he ain't that great..
so stop fighting over him..
i cant even call it fighting, there's no direct attacks
it's a cold war
i wouldn't waste m'time
and of course he doesn't seem interested anyway
-rme*
give it up people
Cole @ 5:23 AM
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[rant]
if your site is under construction/being worked on/new whatever.. don't just leave it like that.. fucking do it..
after a while people are going t'stop coming back t'check on it.. unless it's god.. it's probably not worth the wait..
and it it's just one page.. it can be done in a matter of minutes..
if it's many.. use blogger!
m'sick of seeing these cheap ass never updated sites.. people it's really not -that- hard..
it really doesn't take -that- long..
i know, i've done it..
get off your lazy ass
(note this doesn't apply to people who honestly can't get online)
[/rant]
with that. might i say i will be adding a new section.. no i won't tell you what it is..
and that i am adding a quiz.. (=
Cole @ 11:56 AM
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if your site is under construction/being worked on/new whatever.. don't just leave it like that.. fucking do it..
after a while people are going t'stop coming back t'check on it.. unless it's god.. it's probably not worth the wait..
and it it's just one page.. it can be done in a matter of minutes..
if it's many.. use blogger!
m'sick of seeing these cheap ass never updated sites.. people it's really not -that- hard..
it really doesn't take -that- long..
i know, i've done it..
get off your lazy ass
(note this doesn't apply to people who honestly can't get online)
[/rant]
with that. might i say i will be adding a new section.. no i won't tell you what it is..
and that i am adding a quiz.. (=
Cole @ 11:56 AM
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Added a member to "just not happy" and finally have a member for hurt! yay for tara (=
Cole @ 8:01 AM
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Cole @ 8:01 AM
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I FUCKING HATE GATEWAY!
yup, the cable modem wont work cause of gateway
-snarls*
Cole @ 12:08 PM
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yup, the cable modem wont work cause of gateway
-snarls*
Cole @ 12:08 PM
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~Awards~
click here to see award at full size
~Fan Signs~
Yes, my first fan sign!
Cole @ 12:20 PM
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click here to see award at full size
~Fan Signs~
Yes, my first fan sign!
Cole @ 12:20 PM
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i don't like that we didn't get t'talk.. it makes me feel, not whole.. )=
i don't want t'work tomorrow.. it's like.. -blah*
Cole @ 4:54 PM
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i don't want t'work tomorrow.. it's like.. -blah*
Cole @ 4:54 PM
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i feel like i should be doing something productive
-blah-
all the clique join pages and the hosting page are run off a script on m'server now!
yay!
there's a submission form in the fun stuff section!
can someone tell me what the fuck is going on with okcounter? -groWls*
Cole @ 10:05 PM
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-blah-
all the clique join pages and the hosting page are run off a script on m'server now!
yay!
there's a submission form in the fun stuff section!
can someone tell me what the fuck is going on with okcounter? -groWls*
Cole @ 10:05 PM
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Site's been pretty quiet.. The icon site is officially down, and will return completely overhauled.. but probably not any time soon.. this site is looking at a few minor changes.. a submission form under fun stuff.. the cliques are going t'be moving t'their own site.. i can't think of a name.. leave a comment if you have any ideas..
more than likely the crow site will finally be worked on.. the doll site is currently being updated
Cole @ 8:31 PM
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more than likely the crow site will finally be worked on.. the doll site is currently being updated
Cole @ 8:31 PM
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raymond the revel deeee-eeeeeer
wore leather chaps and carried a gun
rebel deer around the world had heard of but never met the one
fearless rebel dee-eeeeer name raymond
well one day our prey
unbeknownst did lay
and along came the hunter to slay
but raymond the deer, was a rebel at heart
and in this foul play he'd have no part
he lept at the air, and kicked up the ground
and roared off into the horizon, with quite a sound
the hunter stood shocked, brought down his gun
alas he'd failed, to capture "the one"
the rebel deer named raymond
Cole @ 7:04 AM
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wore leather chaps and carried a gun
rebel deer around the world had heard of but never met the one
fearless rebel dee-eeeeer name raymond
well one day our prey
unbeknownst did lay
and along came the hunter to slay
but raymond the deer, was a rebel at heart
and in this foul play he'd have no part
he lept at the air, and kicked up the ground
and roared off into the horizon, with quite a sound
the hunter stood shocked, brought down his gun
alas he'd failed, to capture "the one"
the rebel deer named raymond
Cole @ 7:04 AM
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I just burned a cd.. here's the track listing
1. Cold - No One
2. Jack Off Jull - Cumdumpster
3. A Perfect Circle - Magdalena
4. Abandoned Pools - The Remedy
5. Nirvana - Lithium
6. Filter- Trip Like I Do
7. Bile - Happiness In Slavey
8. Katatonia - For My Demons
9. Katatonia - I Am Nothing
10. Amorphis - Divinity
11. Nevermore - Narcosynthesis
12. Sinch - Pain
13. Chevelle - The Red
14. The Cult - Painted on My Heart
15. A Perfect Circle - Brena
16. Familiar 48 - The Question
17. Jack Off Jill -Star No Star
18. Cold - Send in the Clowns
(bah! "for my demons" wasnt the whole song but ive got it on another cd anyway)i
this cd
Cole @ 11:58 AM
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1. Cold - No One
2. Jack Off Jull - Cumdumpster
3. A Perfect Circle - Magdalena
4. Abandoned Pools - The Remedy
5. Nirvana - Lithium
6. Filter- Trip Like I Do
7. Bile - Happiness In Slavey
8. Katatonia - For My Demons
9. Katatonia - I Am Nothing
10. Amorphis - Divinity
11. Nevermore - Narcosynthesis
12. Sinch - Pain
13. Chevelle - The Red
14. The Cult - Painted on My Heart
15. A Perfect Circle - Brena
16. Familiar 48 - The Question
17. Jack Off Jill -Star No Star
18. Cold - Send in the Clowns
(bah! "for my demons" wasnt the whole song but ive got it on another cd anyway)i
this cd
Cole @ 11:58 AM
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too lazy this summer
but uh, on a happy note
imma see is this works
Click Here
Cole @ 8:21 AM
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but uh, on a happy note
imma see is this works
Click Here
Cole @ 8:21 AM
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tonight is the drowning pool concert i dont get t'go to.. oh well
i tok a shower and changed from one set of pj's t'the other.. mom said it was pathetic and i agreed
i decided tomorrow i wouldnt sleep all day.. id go t'the library and check out the hitchhikers guide t'the galaxy cause then i could work on m'quiz too
but then i remember ive an overdue book.. i finally found it.. but its been overdue some time so the fine is probably over $5 and that means i cant check anything out..
ive decided to look for it as an ebook
Cole @ 11:00 AM
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i tok a shower and changed from one set of pj's t'the other.. mom said it was pathetic and i agreed
i decided tomorrow i wouldnt sleep all day.. id go t'the library and check out the hitchhikers guide t'the galaxy cause then i could work on m'quiz too
but then i remember ive an overdue book.. i finally found it.. but its been overdue some time so the fine is probably over $5 and that means i cant check anything out..
ive decided to look for it as an ebook
Cole @ 11:00 AM
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im having razorblade thoughts, razorblade dreams
and im afraid im going to do something
that ill hurt me..
and im afriad of what people with think
im afraid of not being strong enough
and i dont know why this all is
i dont know why im here
or why this body is so sacred
i dont think it is
i think it should be abuse and hurt
its a curse, it should be ended
its too good for me
i dont deserve this
i dont deserve life
why is it always about everybody else?
WHY?
im afraid ill wind up on a hospital bed
because i did something
because i wont let anyone in
dont you think i fucking try?
i do!
but i cant
i dont know how!
i dont know how..
me..
not knowing something..
being human
i hate this curse
and i wont even left myself feel this way im guilty for taking away their attention guilty because ive not the right to feel? this is all insane and i just want to cry i almost cried but was it real? what is real? i am escaping from reality.. always in my mind why cant i live? why am i on the outside? i want somewhere to run to someplace to be home something thats familiar and you know im trying to reach out but i just cant and does that make me a failure?
Cole @ 7:22 PM
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and im afraid im going to do something
that ill hurt me..
and im afriad of what people with think
im afraid of not being strong enough
and i dont know why this all is
i dont know why im here
or why this body is so sacred
i dont think it is
i think it should be abuse and hurt
its a curse, it should be ended
its too good for me
i dont deserve this
i dont deserve life
why is it always about everybody else?
WHY?
im afraid ill wind up on a hospital bed
because i did something
because i wont let anyone in
dont you think i fucking try?
i do!
but i cant
i dont know how!
i dont know how..
me..
not knowing something..
being human
i hate this curse
and i wont even left myself feel this way im guilty for taking away their attention guilty because ive not the right to feel? this is all insane and i just want to cry i almost cried but was it real? what is real? i am escaping from reality.. always in my mind why cant i live? why am i on the outside? i want somewhere to run to someplace to be home something thats familiar and you know im trying to reach out but i just cant and does that make me a failure?
Cole @ 7:22 PM
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life.. pointless.. on the surface and perhaps everywhere else but our curiosity as humans leads us on and on, when perhaps we should just be letting go, cause i dont know anyone who's truly alive anyway, and in the end we die. our curiosity led us to death. curiosity kill the cat, or in this case, the human.
either way you die. death is the inevitable.
Cole @ 7:00 PM
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either way you die. death is the inevitable.
Cole @ 7:00 PM
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if you hadn't noticed.. the links on the guestbook still went t'indifference :\ but i fixed them!
i've also added a poll in the fun stuff section, go vote!
Cole @ 6:11 AM
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i've also added a poll in the fun stuff section, go vote!
Cole @ 6:11 AM
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i wake up and tim is telling me lita (and john and lilyanne who are from cali) are here.. and i knew they were coming but cause its summer and i dont keep track of the days very well -lol* i didnt realize it would be today
so finally after some snoozieness i get up and her not only is lita, john and lilyanne here, so iz liz and josh and jessica and her daughter anastacia
josh and jessica are m'uncle john's kids (the one that lives with us)
tim went t'pick up mom
so she gets home blah blah here they got kfc, only the yucky kinda with bones so i had a turkey pop pie not that that matters we visit and take lots of pics.. lilyanne really wanted t'see the cats but shes afraid of the dogs so i had t'pick her up whenever they were around
shes uber cute
and then ana really like me.. as soon as i got out there she wanted t'come by me.. and the two little ones were all playing together..
ana liked tippy.. when she was on the lead an went over there.. but she like wanted t'pet the dog and just have the dog stay there.. which tip did cause she is such a nice doggy (= tippy loved it
she giggled in this like uber happy way
but these guys were great eventually ed showed up and i bitched at him but hes like "i dont care whine whine blah"
oh and grandpa got up before i went t'sleep -lol*
hmm so john lilyanne and lita left
and lita was going back down t'rapids so she just gave grandpa bus money..
then john took josh somewhere somewhere and tim had t'work
and liz left
so we visited with jessica and ana a bit.. then dave decided he didnt want grandpa taking the bus back so he offered t'drive him and they invited me along
a little before that carrie showed up with tim (who isnt important just part of the story) and i had t'help him do some internet crap
we all thought it was kinda mean.. of lita t'do that cause she was staying with grandma
so we drove donw there..
and on the way backed stopped at this uber fucking nice mcdonalds
i was like holy shit.. heh but i dun like their food and anyway we came back and carrie and mary ann were here so like i talked t'them and mary ann and i might go see tool like two days before school starts..
Cole @ 5:50 PM
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so finally after some snoozieness i get up and her not only is lita, john and lilyanne here, so iz liz and josh and jessica and her daughter anastacia
josh and jessica are m'uncle john's kids (the one that lives with us)
tim went t'pick up mom
so she gets home blah blah here they got kfc, only the yucky kinda with bones so i had a turkey pop pie not that that matters we visit and take lots of pics.. lilyanne really wanted t'see the cats but shes afraid of the dogs so i had t'pick her up whenever they were around
shes uber cute
and then ana really like me.. as soon as i got out there she wanted t'come by me.. and the two little ones were all playing together..
ana liked tippy.. when she was on the lead an went over there.. but she like wanted t'pet the dog and just have the dog stay there.. which tip did cause she is such a nice doggy (= tippy loved it
she giggled in this like uber happy way
but these guys were great eventually ed showed up and i bitched at him but hes like "i dont care whine whine blah"
oh and grandpa got up before i went t'sleep -lol*
hmm so john lilyanne and lita left
and lita was going back down t'rapids so she just gave grandpa bus money..
then john took josh somewhere somewhere and tim had t'work
and liz left
so we visited with jessica and ana a bit.. then dave decided he didnt want grandpa taking the bus back so he offered t'drive him and they invited me along
a little before that carrie showed up with tim (who isnt important just part of the story) and i had t'help him do some internet crap
we all thought it was kinda mean.. of lita t'do that cause she was staying with grandma
so we drove donw there..
and on the way backed stopped at this uber fucking nice mcdonalds
i was like holy shit.. heh but i dun like their food and anyway we came back and carrie and mary ann were here so like i talked t'them and mary ann and i might go see tool like two days before school starts..
Cole @ 5:50 PM
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listening t'country music -sl* cleared about 60 songs off the hard drive tho s'that's all good
although it wasn't an easy task and i'd rather have talked trandy but he couldn't call cause there's a grandpa on m'couch who is invading m'privacy (and snoring)
was on the west side yesterday, they tore down the old greyghound, didn't even know it was closed.. they're building something new it's been a while since i've been t'the west side.. it's been a while since i've been anyway -sigh*
i don't enjoy doing things anymore, why is that?
guess imma go t'sleep -shrugs* but doubt i'll be able t'with that noise -sl*
took another test.. results are up.. think sav might like it.. speaking of sav i hope she can get her site up soon -nods*
angelwhore pop ups are the devil -smh* die die!
Cole @ 6:29 PM
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although it wasn't an easy task and i'd rather have talked trandy but he couldn't call cause there's a grandpa on m'couch who is invading m'privacy (and snoring)
was on the west side yesterday, they tore down the old greyghound, didn't even know it was closed.. they're building something new it's been a while since i've been t'the west side.. it's been a while since i've been anyway -sigh*
i don't enjoy doing things anymore, why is that?
guess imma go t'sleep -shrugs* but doubt i'll be able t'with that noise -sl*
took another test.. results are up.. think sav might like it.. speaking of sav i hope she can get her site up soon -nods*
angelwhore pop ups are the devil -smh* die die!
Cole @ 6:29 PM
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talking with sav today made me realize a couple things..
there is no clear line between anything anymore.. i don't post any good content in m'blog.. and things aren't always as easy as they seem
i guess i have a job now.. at 29.. -lmfao*
the people who read m'blog are the people i really care about, and i don't need anyone else to.. said realization inspired by goo goo dolls.. copied sav's cd and almost cried.. it's so fucking good..
some people do things t'protect me and i should be thankful for that..
also copied incubus.. (=
anyone i am plugging for sav cause she does kick ass, and she is real! *Plug* *Plug* *Plug**Plug* *Plug**Plug* *Plug**Plug* *Plug**Plug* *Plug* *Plug* *Plug* *Plug* *Plug* *Plug*
ive also added more blog links t'the side
plus i've almost got 200 hits.. m'astonished..
i think this is m'randy cd..
anyway.. m'off t'fix s'more of the site..
p.s. while you're at it check out m'two hostee Fabuki and Mei!!!
Cole @ 12:28 PM
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there is no clear line between anything anymore.. i don't post any good content in m'blog.. and things aren't always as easy as they seem
i guess i have a job now.. at 29.. -lmfao*
the people who read m'blog are the people i really care about, and i don't need anyone else to.. said realization inspired by goo goo dolls.. copied sav's cd and almost cried.. it's so fucking good..
some people do things t'protect me and i should be thankful for that..
also copied incubus.. (=
anyone i am plugging for sav cause she does kick ass, and she is real! *Plug* *Plug* *Plug**Plug* *Plug**Plug* *Plug**Plug* *Plug**Plug* *Plug* *Plug* *Plug* *Plug* *Plug* *Plug*
ive also added more blog links t'the side
plus i've almost got 200 hits.. m'astonished..
i think this is m'randy cd..
anyway.. m'off t'fix s'more of the site..
p.s. while you're at it check out m'two hostee Fabuki and Mei!!!
Cole @ 12:28 PM
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"Can you help me remember how to smile?
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded?
Life's mystery seems so faded"
mer tim's an ass.. m'sore.. and yea
Cole @ 6:15 PM
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Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded?
Life's mystery seems so faded"
mer tim's an ass.. m'sore.. and yea
Cole @ 6:15 PM
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