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Archive for December, 2002

Heaven is made of..

When I was younger, mom and dan would take Amanda and I to the Village Inn. It was a restaurant across the Ramada. I had a taste of their French Silk, and I loved it. I remember the last time we went there. They didn’t have pie, or I couldn’t get it or something. And the next time we tried to go they had shut down. -l* bitter.

christmas inventory

well, hope everyone has had a nice christmas, yule, chanukah, etc..
i worked on probably all three of these days
m’break has been pretty full of work
however the checks will be nice.
x-mas i worked at the weston store, apparently pissed off some customer.
and brian m’store manager was s’posed t’talk t’me, but tim talked t’him, and it’s apparently all good.
m’presents were nothing really good. no surprise from mom and tim. susie did a knock up job of not following m’list. -sl*
on the eve we opened presents.. x-mas day after work i came over for food. it was mediocre. barry had a seizure b/c ronnie had smacked him on the head. he’s an idiot. m’wrist is starting t’hurt.
hope you all had a good anti christmas too. (friday the 13th)
apparently the girls went along with the exchange without me. i was pissed. seems like a waste of m’money. brett chewed thru the wrapping on ashley’s present. that really pisses me off. stupid dog. i dont even know where her stuff is.
ive a cell phone i wont use. ive phone cards i cant use. ive the lava for the lava lamp but no lamp. ive slippers and a tshirt i love. ive pj’s i wont ever wear. i gave the cd player t’mom, no radio. ive a lifetime supply of batteries. ive a $25 gift certificate t’the store i work at. i’ve a sdtk t’moulin rouge, not the right one.
xmas should rightly be called presents day. non christians celebrate it for presents. like moi. -lol* most christians celebrate it for the same reason. it pisses me off. they should be less concieted. oi vey plug plug plug plug plug plug
wanna be plugged?

The older, the better?

i was checking out a customer, and i happened to hear jennifer in the till next t’me talking t’her customer.. and he said something like ‘shame on you’ and i just jumped in.. and i was like you don’t know what you’re talking about and then i was like ‘what are you talking about?’ and she told me she was talking about her grandma fooling around.. and her customer said she’s jealous.. and i was like ‘of older men?’ and then he tells me i should try it some time i turned sooooo red.. then MY customer says ‘you’ll like the experience’
and these were like 50 y/o people

Attraction, Assumptions, Amusements

well.. some thoughts..
was as one of those rate my pic sites and all the guys were pretty nasty.. i think in general girls are just hotter. d=
i have many friends who were at one time quite strait edge and now have either become sluts/bitches/or all badass. it’s so fake, i can’t stand it. i don’t know how i am supposed to trust them. =\
i also realize i have lost my best friend.. randy i miss you.. -sigh* i am fucking lonely, and no one seems to notice. everyone seems to think i am sad all the time because of the way i dress. get a fucking clue! i am sad sometimes, others i am happy. the way i dress stays the same! however, if i am really sad you might be able to tell from the way i act. sometimes i wish i had different friends. i want to be able to open up to someone but i know how controlling and dependant i could become. but i am so sick of feeling alone.
i am so sick of this city. people are so closed minded. i detest when people stereotype me, even my friend. obviously no one knows me. i’ve started lookign at colleges. debating whether or not i want to stay in state. any opinions?
it saddens me that no one seems to read my blog. i know sometimes its babble, and sometimes only site related, but others i let out very personal things. and i feel as if someone commented i would somehow be more cared about. oh i don’t know. -sigh*
tippy is trying to crawl under the desk. i bought tickets for junior girls today. $52. eeks. i had been regretting deciding to go, but maybe it will be a lot of fun. if i can stand my friends for that long. =\
this post is getting really long. i am hungry. i should put my thoughts on paper, er screen more often. it’s a tad cathartic, as was writing in a journal everyday for five minutes in mrs. eberlein’s class.
today i had a math test, i think i did all right. i went to the mall with joshy after school. his mom is pretty. he bought her a christmas present, some betty spaghetti doll. please don’t ask. saw amber and angel there. they were shoplifting as usual. -smh* some people..
saw ginger and fabiola, walked home with them.. joshy’s mom picked him up.
met kayla, from mercer on sunday. for those of you who don’t know, she’s one of those online friends. it was okay. i was running a bit late. -lol*
bought mom’s last christmas present today. when i get paid i need t’buy timmy a game boy colour, and that should just about wrap things up. although, i don’t know what i could buy for ginger. she’ll live i suppose.
this is getting really long, and i still feel as thought i am missing something, oh well. i feel better.
!Cole!

Lonely

the loneliest feeling in the world is knowing that all the people you love are thousands of miles away spread out across the world
and you couldn’t care less about the people you live with
im so fucking shallow
im so fucking alone
im such a fucking failure

Credit Cards and server moves

So.. I wanted to add another hostee, but cannot add subdomains as Tim’s credit card, which is paying for the domain has run up. He is waiting for his new one, but it hasn’t arrived yet. I don’t know how else this hinders me, hopefully I won’t have to find out. However, my host is deleting my server, and I must transfer to a new and better one. Which is all good and dandy, but I need to sign up for a new account and transfer all that to do so, and this means I need Tim’s credit card. -rawr*
But apparently FTP is back up.

New Poll, Updated abound

new poll! updated past versions, my sites, hostees, button wall. added a fan signs page, 50 things about me, area 51. go see!

today i bought new shoelaces and a book about nightmare before christmas (the shoelaces were of jack skellington)