who's t'say you're actually listening at all?
i feel that way all the time..
or if they do listen
people dont realize how fucking serious this all is t'me
everything is sucky
cause i miss randy
and not just being with him
having him as a friend
cause he made me feel GREAT
he knew me.. knew when i was upset
knew how t'make me feel better
i dont have that now
but this isnt the big problem
only the underlying factor
we kinda broke up on the.. i love you.. and miss you.. but at the moment i cant talk t'you terms..
so i was hoping he'd come back..
and everything would be good..
and i can wait..
but then im a girl
and i start liking other people
which makes me feel whoreish
and id gotten t'the point where i didnt feel that way
only its like a like a dozen guys
and its way hard differentiation between liking
and just thinking you could be with this person
guy named chris..
started playing.. and whoa.. here is turns ive got feelings for the guy..
kinda seems theres nothing that could come of it tho..
wanna spare myself the hurt
mhmm..
well kinda
but hes like al on drugs
and now he has a g/f
and i think that was just a flighty crush
guy named phil
from detroit
rather close
really nice
has a fucking hot voice
but like his bro's ex g/f talked him into letting her move in
and shes falling for him.. or so she told me
and shes telling him t'get with me
and i think he really does like me
but hes 28
and normally age doesnt matter
but thats freaking me out
and there were several other guys i liked
but wound up with other chicks
mer
but phil is like..
really awesome.. but i think the age wold create a problem irl..
talked on the phone last night for 3 hours
t'a guy named justin
who lives in state -gasp*
like an hour away
and might be coming down on friday
but he's freaking on the age..
and i think this is more the we -could- get together things..
however he doesnt piss me off..
like the rest of the world
Cole @ 5:31 PM
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